School is being a butt-hole this year
I can NEVER catch a break
I can't remember the last time I drew something so I have to start putting dates on everything I draw
I hate it. I'm not allowed to draw every day anymore. not allowed to be with friends. not allowed to get my commissions done.
WHY?!?! because school is a butt-hole. DONE
I get one of those week of school break things, it only multiplies my homework by ten because teachers don't know WHAT a break is
I got homework in all my classes
couple 6 multi page essays to type
research project here and there
speech to memorize (don't forget that if you say "um" I take away 10% of your grade)
few packets to do. Entire driver's ed written test to study for
heck, NO I'M NOT.
*breathes in a heavy sigh*
look, I'm sorry if I'm being REALLY negative right now, and not the random happy derp that I always am. I haven't gotten a break from school at all since august, and that is even before my school started. when you just have constant work to do, you depress yourself because you find no time to spend things that you love to do...I don't have time to be with family even.
Am I depressed right now? yes I am, I have cried, I have slipped in school, I've been yelled at so many times because my mind wanders at the stress I'm in. I worry about the commissions I haven't done, and failing the people I care about. I feel like a failure right now, and I just want to let go of my feelings somewhere where no body knows me personally. I act like a happy, kind person in front of people i know, and they always ask why i am always so cheerful. Truth is, I'm not, I'm more depressed than you think.
i know this won't last, i tend to cheer up pretty quickly due to my nature. All i want is a break, and a reminder that i actually mean something in my family, and that I'm not a failure.
with this message, you can probably guess i may not post anything for a long time. If this is the case, i will make a new account and start fresh on DA, and leave a link to it to. i probably lost half of my watchers anyway, so it won't make much of a difference.
Again, i apologize for this extremely long, boring, negative, non-derpy message, and i'll try as hard as i can to get back on.
Like always, stay awesome!
~The long dreamer